Sounds Familiar

Yesterday’s Labor Day (holiday) paved the way for our church’s first Family Outing at Loreland, Antipolo. I didn’t have enough sleep the night before our church’s event, not that I was so excited for it, but because I tried to check my Multiply account for more updates. Lo and behold, I didn’t find anything new. But I noticed that a friend/law school classmate uploaded a list of relaxing songs that made me wait to fully download them all. (Thanks, bro!) After downloading the songs, I listened to them one by one because the song titles are not familiar to me. By the time I heard the song, ‘Goodnight Girl’ by Jay Durias from his album ‘Songs I Grew Up With’. I listened and figured out the song, because it sounded familiar to me only that I didn’t know the title of the song. I stopped for a while and instead of going to the next song, I turned on the ‘repeat song’ option on my player. Then, I kept on listening to the song for the nth time. Until, I saw that it was already 2 a.m. on my clock and I remembered that we should wake up by 4 a.m. So I transferred the songs to my mp3 player, and hurried to my bed to sleep. My very-late-sleeping habit sounded familiar to me since I entered law school until now.

Thank God, I woke up early and took a bath immediately. Then, I packed my things for the whole day outing. I finished my preparations early so I had the chance to watch TV and help my Dad to load other things in the car. Then, my Dad and Mom left immediately to fetch our other church mates in the church. Afterwards, we followed.

By the time we arrived at the resort, we started to fix our things and settle for the whole day affair. The day started so hot. (literally scorching heat! whew!) So we just ate first to fill our tummies before we swim. Then after a few minutes, our other church mates came. Mama Aileen told me that Neri is just around the vicinity of Antipolo because she also had their company outing at Bosay. So I told Maan about it and she sent an SMS to Neri and invited her to come over and join us. Neri agreed and was fetched by my Ate and Jen. While waiting, we just ate and had some hilarious chit-chat with Dr. Jem, Ate Joy, Wendy, Carla, Joshua and Jerry. I told them that it’s a time to celebrate for our successful anniversary last Sunday and a time to bond with other youth members in our church who happened to be there also. They all agreed to my ‘sounds familiar’ instructions whenever there are new young people coming and joining the church.

Jeri, AJ, JP and Joshua (the “Bernardo Brothers” as we fondly call them) went together with me as I toured them all over the place. Afterwards, we decided to swim. After swimming, it was already lunch time so we went back to our place and ate lunch. Wow! I love the food plus the kulitan moments. Then, Neri came together with Ate and Jen. It was only this time that I saw her after Jen’s victory during the pageant at Araneta Coliseum. So after eating we took some pictures together and then we had our siesta time sharing stories as I wouldn’t want to swim because of the sweltering heat that time. Then, during our bonding moment, she injected the words, “Confirmed na!” I said, “What do you mean, ‘confirmed’ na?” So she refreshed my memory about the incident we were talking about while we were waiting for Jen at the South Gate of Araneta Coliseum. (Well, you know, when you tell me personal stories/events, rest assured, I won’t remember them after three days. I have a short-term memory when it comes to personal stories/events concerning me and my friends. I don’t know why. That’s why I tell my friends that your secrets are safe with me, not until I write a blog entry about them, like this one. Hehehe...)

Moreover, I tried to recall it as she restates certain facts to help me. By the time, I’m on the right zone; I started responding to her statement of facts. Honestly, I don’t know what to feel right that moment. It’s like the story sounded familiar but I don’t know why and what should I feel that moment. It involved two ‘common’ personalities in our lives. I can’t recall what I said to her exactly after confirming that the two ‘common’ people in our lives are now ‘secretly’ in a relationship. (Insert music here: 'Secret Lovers' by Atlantic Starr. Hehehe.. I hate to say the last phrase in that sentence, it sounds very Friendster! Hehehe...) I just said that there’s nothing wrong about it and I’m happy for them and I wish them all the best. (I honestly meant it though that sounded a familiar cliché... Hehehe…)

Our lips were filled with laughter after a strong and heavy wind broke our silence after discussing the story. In fact, we even shed a better light on the matter. The story we were discussing has been very familiar to us since the time we knew that rumors are spreading about it. We just shrug off our shoulders about ii even if things and events confirmed the facts. Whether they admit it or not, it’s not our business anymore. The incident sounded familiar because we never thought that our ‘what ifs’ would have become a reality.

By the time we went home, honestly, I kept on thinking about it. Not that I felt anything bad about it, but I was just pondering if I need to let it out by writing it on my blogsite. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to ruin the joy that I felt during our church’s event by just lingering on a fact that will remain forever as a fact. I can’t do anything about it. I don’t want to feel anything negative about it. They have the right to make decisions for their lives. And I would like to respect that decision that they’ve made. It’s just that, I want to take it on a positive perspective with a Christ-like attitude. You may not understand why it seemed to sound like a big deal for us, but when you got the idea the behind it, I guess you would feel the same way too. Does the word delicadeza, sounds familiar to you? Then it would help you understand somehow.

Whoa!! Brooke White was eliminated in American Idol 2008. I felt extremely sad (that’s a hyperbole! Hehehe..) as she sang for the last time on Idol stage. That was the most dramatic and emotional exit I’ve ever seen in American Idol. I even watched it more than four times on local TV channel and on cable channels. I will surely miss her voice and her heartfelt performances. Her voice sounded familiar to me, I just need to figure it out.

The rain poured so hard last night. I thought that the succession of lightning bolts cutting the dark sky would translate to a brown-out. I felt literally so hot even if I had taken bath for two times that night. I went out before I go to bed and I saw how dark the skies were. The wind blew so hard. Our lights were flickering but it didn’t convert into a brown-out. I played ‘Goodnight Girl’ in my mp3 before I sleep. It felt good. It felt really, really good. I prayed and thanked God for everything He has done in my life. I thanked Him for everything as I always claim Romans 8:28. I thanked Him for saving me from falling into a temptation by a sudden confirmation. I lifted everything up to Him and unto His will. I felt relieved, comforted and vindicated. Thank God!! At the end of the day, two things I surely will miss-----Brooke White and ‘her’. I felt great after a tear fell from my eyes. Whew! (Deep sigh)

This is the only feeling I don’t want to get familiar with.

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Mama Len! God bless!